Me: silence
Mom: "are you okay?"
Me: "i'm well enough"
Mom: "sometimes I wish we could tell that eating disorder just to f*€k off"
I laughed.
My mom knows obviously. She is such the eloquent speaker. She doesn't get it but after a couple years of once a month of family counseling she has excepted its not something I asked for...
Sorry I donT have a lot to say I'm usually more verbos with my dull life. Toady though I chose to wallow in how unhappy i am...
I have every blessing in the world every opportunity. But all I can do is dwell on my body. More specifically my unrelenting hatred for my body...
I want to be happy and healthy but I'm 19 and my aspirations havent changed since I was twelve I want bones, pure white bones...
With love,
~Ell
I know how you feel...it does take over our lives...but you can talk to your mum about how you feel? I hope you feel stronger now, you deserve it beautiful xx
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